i love too much and too little. why does logic and reason completely evade me when it comes to them? the ones who have hurt me so much in the past? yet i'm asked to trust all including the one who has betrayed my trust and at the same time attempts to gain it! they haven't betrayed me yet. emotions aside, there hasn't been any malicious intent. now do i care too much or too little? and what does that all mean? If i'm jealous, is that good or bad? what if I'm not? this is a decision I just can't make! I know that whatever happens is what is meant to be, but I have a hand in this fate too, do I not? Is the only valid question who I would rather waste my time with waiting for another?! that sounds so harsh.

You all don't know me! I have too many secrets.

--wishes--secrets--